I'm dying to know...

I'm dying to know my son's thoughts and words.


I'm dying to know what he is thinking when I'm laying in his bed beside him at bedtime and he looks over at me and smiles sweetly.
I'm dying to know what he is telling me when he frantically wants something from me while I run around the room going "Do you want this?" "No? Okay, is it this?"  and he just keeps getting more and more upset.
I'm dying to know what he did all day at the sitters.  What did you play with?  Who did you play with?  Did you play fair?  Is she good to you?
I'm dying for him to call me "Mom" or "Mommy" or even "Mama" instead of the high pitched "Mah" that he has come up with as a substitute.
I'm dying to know what he wants when he's throwing a fit in the car and I can't figure out what it's about.
I'm dying for him to say "I love you too", or "Goodnight Mom".
I'm dying to know how he feels about new situations, especially when he gets quiet and distant.
I want to be able to ask him these things.
I want to be able to talk about Korea and his adoption....not just me talking, but him responding with some semblance of understanding.
I'm dying to hear the commentary that is going on in his head....I want to hear what his personality is like, because that boy has SO MUCH PERSONALITY.

**Miles isn't talking like other children his age.  I used to blame it on being immersed in another language for the first ten months of his life....which I do believe is a factor.  However, I've seen and heard other children with identical situations that are spitting out distinguishable words and sentences.  It's not just that he isn't talking, but it's that he is also making up words and sounds to substitute other words.  Up until now I haven't been all that worried about it.  I've made the conscious decision to approach it in a laid-back manner...in other words, give it a few months.  I've decided to wait it out until he's 2 and a half - then I can allow myself to explore it further.  However, 2 and a half is coming up quickly.  

Someday all I'll want is for him to sit down and zip it.....that's hard to imagine right now, when I want all of those other things.