Sunday, November 29, 2009

Miles has a new house, Mom's as big as a house, and decorating our house.

Okay, so to start off with the title of this post....the other day we got a new deep freezer, which we've never had before.  It was very exciting and made me feel very grown up.  Dustin's already talking about finding a half cow somewhere to put in it.... I dont' even think we eat enough red meat to make up half of a cow in a year.  Well, the highlight of the entire experience, besides Miles running between appliances and giggling incessantly at Sears, was that we had this awesome box that Dustin turned in to a little house for Miles to play with.  Of course he loved it and continued to laugh like crazy everytime he went inside.  As far as me being a big as a house....well the photo pretty much sums it up.  Today is officially my estimated due date and I have a feeling that I am going to watch it come and go, which is a bit depressing.  I even braved the elements on Black Friday with the hopes that it would throw me into labor.  Although I came very close in line at Target, it never did happen.  Oh well, I guess he or she will come when they're good and ready - it doesn't really matter what I want. :)  Hopefully this isn't a trend. :)

Here is another picture of Miles helping me put together a little bouncer seat that we bought for the new baby.  He loved playing with the allen wrench and screwdriver and now he loves turning on the music and vibrating features and sitting in the chair.  Hopefully he isn't completely jaded when the baby comes and he finds out it was never really for him and that he way too big to sit in it.

And lastly, we started decorating our house for Christmas this weekend, which may be one of my favorite things to do during this season.  In the meantime Miles found this little santa hat, and since he now has an obsession with hats, he could wait to try it on, and ran around with the ball in his face for quite some time....once again laughing like crazy.  He thinks he is such a card these days. :)  To himself, he is the funniest person alive, which sort of makes him the funniest person alive to me as well.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Why hello Baby Bean!

Okay, so the title of this post is misleading.... there is no baby bean to say hello to...yet.  However, it has been a long time since I posted, and I have never really posted much about Miles' soon-to-appear brother or sister, so I thought I would do so tonight.  The truth of the matter is that I am due in exactly one week and three days so I have been trying frantically to get some major things done.  I have a few clients' photos that I am finishing and also my big final review - which is OFFICIALLY written and will be mailed out tomorrow!!!!!  Yeah!  Now all I have to do is present it and big deal. :)

I've also been dealing mentally of the reality of two babies that are only a year and half apart.  I don't do well with change, and having two babies in less than 8 months is A LOT of change.  However, I can't really think of a better way for us to do it. :)

So all that being said, here is the latest on the Baby Bean....

Here is the latest picture we've received of the little one - there isn't a whole lot of room in there so he/she is pretty smooshed.  The woman running the ultrasound seemed a little freaked out by how big the baby was, which was oh so comforting for his or her poor mother. :)  However, I can just figure that is less weight I will have to lose when it is all said and done - AND I've read somewhere that big babies are often times easier to deliver.  I guess we'll see.  Here you can see that he or she is sucking on their thumb - very crazy!  These 3-D ultrasounds are so surreal.

Well, that is all I really have to share.  I could complain about how hard it is to walk up stairs, or roll over in bed at night, but I'm just so happy to have two healthy babies that I refuse to do least in writing. :)

So Baby Bean, if you can read my can go ahead and come out now.     Seriously.

Friday, November 6, 2009

One Year Ago Today...

Dear Miles,
One year ago today I woke up sad, but hopeful.  I was a mother without a child - my heart ached as I got ready for work and left early in the morning wondering how I was going to make it through another Thursday without a phone call.  I spent the entire day checking my cell phone between classes, telling myself that it would be okay and that the phone call would come when you were ready.  As the end of the day came to an end my students all left the room and I sat at my desk with my head between my hands.  I remember holding back tears as I thought about how the phonecall would have already come if it was going to happen that day.  I wanted to go home so that no one else would ask whether I had heard anything.  I was so sad.

Then just a little after 3:00 - just minutes after I had given up hope my phone rang and it was the social worker.  She told me that she had a pictures of a little boy named Yo Seb Kim and that he was ours.  She told me that you were healthy and read everything she could about you over the phone.  I was so excited that I couldn't even figure out what to do.  I called your dad at work, but he wasn't answering because he was in the middle of a class.  I sat at my desk and embraced the fact that you were my own little secret for as long as I could (about 10 minutes).  I called his office and his classroom, and then I finally called the front office and made them hunt him down so that I could tell him.  I knew that he would want to know the exciting news immediately.

All night we talked about you and dreamed about you.  We already loved you and couldn't wait to meet you.  The next day we took off work so that we could see your beautiful picture and sign some other forms.  Afterwards we  went out to eat to celebrate you - just the two of us.  On Saturday morning we laid in bed and thought of names for you.  When we decided on Miles we called our parents (your grandparents) and they were so excited to hear about you.  They loved you too, and hadn't even met you - imagine how much they must love you now that they know how funny and wonderful you are.

Now one year later we can't imagine life without you.  It is hard for me to remember what it felt like a year ago to not have you.  Everyday you make me smile - even when you're grumpy.  Everyday you amaze me with the things that you can do and know.  I can't wait to see you when you wake up in the morning and I can't stand waiting to see you after work.  On Wednesday I saw you walking past the school with your babysitter and it made me smile because you love walks and you love your babysitter, but it made me sad because I couldn't be there.  In just a short time our lives will really change, but I want you to know that how much I love you won't.  A year ago I didn't think that my heart could fill up anymore than it already had, but now my cup runnith over. :)

We love you Miles.  Happy one-year referral day.

Love, Your Mom

Monday, November 2, 2009