Thursday, June 9, 2011

another chapter.

Yesterday I shut down my computer, turned in my last gradebook, and handed over the keys that have been dangling from my keyring for the last seven years. 
I had been dreading that moment for weeks now - the finality of it. 
My department bought the entire faculty cake, and me a sweet little gift.  I received cards with notes from the people I've called my coworkers and friends. It was all understated....and exactly how I wanted it.
As I picked up my last box to carry out to my car I didn't say goodbye to anyone.  I looked back at my bare-walled room and considered taking a picture.  But I didn't.
My classroom door closed and locked behind me and I had a brief moment of panic.  What if I needed to get in there next week because I forgot something? I realized that this was ridiculous.  (Until today, when I realized that I really do need back in there.)

Here's the surprising thing.  I didn't cry.  I'm a crier that didn't cry on her last day of work at a job she loved.  I got in my car, went out to lunch with dear friends, and then took off for my parents' house. 
I haven't been able to talk to anyone, but I feel surprisingly at peace.
Did I mention that we accepted an offer on the house the night before?

I feel this incredible amount of peace over closing some major chapters in my life this week and it's freaking me out.  Where are the tears and the overreactions?  How am I holding it together?
Just another indication that this is exactly what I'm supposed to be doing.

2 comments:

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Wow, this is so exciting! And you've already got an offer on your house? Amazing.

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Your heart will give you truth when your mind can't.

Congrats on your new role as a SAHM :) and on the house offer! In this economy, selling your house that fast is amazing!